Tonight, I am draped over the couch I inherited from a group house long ago, and I have spent the last hour and a half looking at TV clips and movie trailers and new content added to Netflix I will never watch, and scanning images on Pinterest for recipes I will never cook and DIY crafts I will never make. I’ve been looking sleepily for something to watch or do. Looking looking looking.
And not just tonight, when a 12-hour work day has made me as animated as a paper doll.
Basically, I would always rather search, strategize, contemplate, and deliberate than take action. It’s important for me to take action. Otherwise I will always be preparing for life but miss out on the living.
There is nothing wrong with my need to gather all the pertinent information before making a decision. And I have made many an informed decision as a result. Let’s think of a few.
- Printing the perfect photos for the Emmick Plantation House Kolar family gallery (Evan in a fur coat, Eames’ hipster posture, the boys in Prague laughing into pilsners, Tasha with a shotgun in gingham, etc.)
- Finding Biola University in the Princeton Review all those years ago
- Settling on an MA in International Education instead of a teaching credential or international development degree
- Going to work for Hanover Research, the perfect place to grow personally and professionally
- Writing a bunch of high quality research briefs with high quality sources
- Wading through churches and finding a home at St. Brendan’s in the City (in DC) and then MiddleTree (in STL)
- Choosing a great apartment in St. Louis, sight unseen
- Marrying Zack Thompson, a toad among tadpoles
- Designing an awesome honeymoon itinerary
- Hunting and gathering many lifelong friends who make my world merry and sparkly
Ok, that’s 10. Ten’s usually a good number for stopping. And stopping is the goal here.
So, I’m telling myself to (yeah do your thing, BUT!) pay attention for when it’s time to stop considering all the options, and grab one off the shelf. Rip open the package and suck it down right in the aisle of the supermarket. Don’t waste another minute. That’s how I got that top ten list. Now let’s stretch it to 100.